Holistic Life Coach, CLC
June 23, 2015
Since my open heart surgery less than 2 months ago, having an “open heart” has attained a brand-new meaning for me. While definitely “heart-sick” before surgery after a life of abundant heart break, I am now the epitome of a “Wounded Healer.” According to spiritual author and teacher, Carolyn Myss, a “Wounded Healer” creates himself or herself by conquering fear and adversity, extreme pain and suffering. Remaining true to Truth and God under any such circumstances is the conquest and ultimate victory from which others can then also derive messages, inspiration and lessons. A healer’s insight and healing capacity grows exponentially as a result of such self-chosen circumstances.
Carl Jung says about this that “The doctor is effective only when he himself is affected. Only the wounded physician heals.”
And a Shaman would probably say that initiation involves being bitten by the (symbolic) snake seven times, whereby overcoming the venom is the point of transcending matter.
As a healer, I used to be confused and saddened by people’s “forgetfulness” of previous healing experiences, when being afflicted with a new or different illness again. “When push comes to shove,” I used to say, “They run to the emergency room and a doctor who gives them medical ‘miracles,’ i.e., surgery and a pill.” When struck by the urgency of heart disease, I now was myself facing the dilemma (and the implied criticism from other healers and coaches) of choosing alternative methods or returning to the hospital for surgery, which was strongly recommended by the MD’s after my heart attack. They—no doubt—had extended my life once already, and they took the immediate pain away, by placing a stent into my heart and facilitating blood flow. I experienced intense gratitude when coming to, for the chance of coming to again in this material world. While medical procedures are definitely what “the doctor ordered” in life-threatening emergencies, it is up to each individual to check carefully if such life-extending measures are what God ordered, too, in each case. In my case, I know I was literally pushed and led to the hospital—the ambulance was called without my knowledge or agreement—its’ a road I would not have chosen in my own fully conscious mind.
I had always been against life-extending,medical procedures which have drained our healthcare system, often for extending the life span by only a few weeks at the end of someone’s already long life. Now my view of this issue is no longer thus rigid. After all, every time a healer extends a hand to help reduce suffering and assisting someone to start living anew and in different ways, we may be talking about life-extension, though naturally and non-intrusively.
The medical and surgical procedures are providing me with another chance to…(a) Revisit old hurts which have led to heart disease in the first place, to finally clear all negative emotions still lingering in my larger organism (which incl. my mind), and (b) By so doing, deepen and expand my healing work for others. Dr. Jean Carlson Logan, author of three fabulous books on the Healing Power of Glyphs--Symbols of Light, just posted a little article on her facebook page, emphasizing what most energy workers re well aware of:
1. Way beyond having a physical body, “we are spiritual beings,” she says.
2. She says that “the causes of all disease are deep-seated, buried emotions and toxic thoughts.” Physical symptoms are the body’s language communicating to us that we have error messages in our system. An error message is everything that is less than a loving interpretation of something that happened to us.
3. If we do not clear these errors (usually taking the form of toxic emotions like sadness, rage, resignation, powerlessness, envy, resentments, etc.), they will re-surface again elsewhere in the body. No matter how often I undergo surgery in a hospital, those procedures, ultimately, do not spare me the necessary work on myself, of clearing, releasing, forgiving and replacing with utter love, every endured emotional hurt in my life.
Thank you, Jean, for your timely reminders. You are stating what is needed so very well!
Not all toxic emotions are stored in the heart to create havoc there. According to Louise Hays (author of “You can Heal your Life”) and many other teachers before me, they can be located anywhere within the energy fields surrounding our organism that represent our mind. The location usually has some connection to the bodily area afflicted, e.g., the hip area relates to issues of subjectively experiencing a lack of support in our life. Of course, such an experience is based on one’s own interpretation and usually ignores all the visible and invisible support we are receiving every day, e.g., from Mother Earth who carries us.
May God bless us all with the necessary diligence and persistence to finish our healing work. Opening up my chests has had the effect of unlocking some memory chambers buried in my heart. I am deeply grateful that state-of-the-art medical emergency intervention has provided me an extra chance and time to heal my heart and mind, and I must not wait and delay another minute to examine every one of these painful memories popping up in my mind since surgery, and to release them, one by one, to the light and to love.
(Foto Art by Daniel Fitzpatrick, 2008)